so today i write to myself and when i am done what i am to achieve is something i am unsure about but right at this point of time there is noone to talk to except you .
dear myself,
where do i begin this letter from? there is so much to tell you yet i am at a loss of words. today i know you are feeling lonely, and a depression brings your spirits down, but do not worry tomorrow is a new day and you will have things to be cheerful about.it is true you know, calling someone up in order to fill up the gaps in time with anything, even mindless banter is quite futile. you can run as hard as you may but you cannot hide, lonliness will grip your heart.i know you are feeling hurt because you find yourself all alone, but honey, don't you see that it is perhaps a lot better than sulking over some stupid , unworthy man, yet you yearn after the same forbidden fruit.will you never learn?in what hope was that call made, dear, where you really hoping that he would understand. even make an attempt to cheer you up. there is nothing in this world he cares about or the harsher truth he doesn't care about you, never has and never will and that is the sad yet true fact.please stop hurting yourself, show some courage and face your fears. breaking down like this will not get you anywhere, honestly sometimes your behavior borders on desperation. why do you feel this terrible need to talk to him?his silly banter about things you hardly care about is boring, and borders on heart wrenching when you are so busy day dreaming his words and actions for him. unfortunately life does not follow your day dream script and hence the dissapointments.in your dream he always calls back to ask what is worng with you, but in real life it doesn't work that way.so stop calling him, and stop being a fool and so damn weak!take care of yourself, and don't shed those tears. ( they are too precious to be wasted on that conceited bastard!!)
love you ..
XXX
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