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starting anew

Thu 12/1/2005 6:55 PM

i have been selected in Pantaloons retail india ltd. and i am happy! old news! but today after a long time i have started typing my journal. why had i taken a long break? was it forced or brought over by the circumstances?i will answer my own questions one by one. strangely ironic, because there has been many more times when i have failed to answer my own queries and have been left depressed.but this is different, yes it it.after my institute's classes resumed i was unable to go online with the same regularity perhaps because of the tasks burdening me and inaccessibility of the net.but after a while i was too lazy to bother writing anything, not even into my very favorite diary. i was so fatigued that i seemed to have lost all interest to post anything. even write about all the things that were happening.i will not spend time here (as my friend says) yapping about all the events i have not talked about before, they are as obvious, too many to be really named one by one.the most recent development that has happened is my getting a job. this was a time of extreme stress and tension. the last 3 weeks have been almost as bad as time spent in hell. although i cannot vouch whether they can really be compared.i can vouch for one thing that the last couple of months prior to this have been extremely difficult for me, on the personal front. i was too stressed out because of my father's ill health, topping it off with my atrociously poor results in the annual examination ended May 2005. together with ill-behavior from the D in my life, i have decided to re-christen him as DEVIL. that's exactly what he is!anyway let me not waste my breath over a lost cause.after a long time now, after my summer training, i can truely say that i am happy, on the personal level (on the emotional and mental level i am at peace). having got a job has had a boosting effect on my sagging self-image.at this point of time i am relived on one level, but there is still concern for my other classmates who have not been placed. they have been absolute darlings for me, and i really want to stand beside them now and boost their morale running low, if i can with my words and actions as they have done for me.
before moving on i want to say, I COULD NOT HAVE DONE THIS WITHOUT THE SUPPORT, CARE, WARMTH, LOVE AND WORDS OF DEAR FRIENDS OF MBA(DAY) '04-'06.
something has changed over the past few months, i just realized how much update i really have to give to my blogs... but let us not become overtly tensed, i think i will manage fine.first things first... Rick has not left our dear ole city for greener pastures up north, and i was rather happy to hear that. and the reason i am back at typing these words is him. he had been cheking my blogs and found them empty of any updates. the thot that sme1 was chking on my blogs made me feel the need to write again. i was afraid at one point that i hd completely lost my creativity but thank heavens i am still as good at innane talk as i have been.although i hven't been in tuch wid Rick too much, obviously hurt a bit coz my idea of friends is people who always think of me, call me, stay in tuch. all the actions on their part as i am truely lazy. perhaps i was rather wrong in my dealing wid Rick. i either am too friendly or too aloof... hell, dealing wid Librans is one difficult job ;-)
a news update: i had tried without success to severe all relations wid D and well now i am again not on speaking terms wid him. although did recieve a message today itself and shot off a couple of letters and cards.during the puja he was in delhi and that had hurt me a lot and things have been on the downswing ever since. even before that there were small minor tiffs, another newsflash, he has broken up wid his gf, whatever!!anyway, now i am tredding my gorunds rather carefully as i am a lil tired of being hurt so many times for no fault of mine. if someone doesn't need me, i do not need that person either.
the other hand of the situation is, i have come close to my ex-bf. he has been a good support trying his best to give me the right kind of advice regarding D. but honestly i feel the relation wid D has gone beyond any advice.but my Ex has been a good friend and i hope i can stand by him when he needs a helping hand. it takes a lot to forgive and forget things as horrible as we have said to each other. perhaps it was this maturity that we lacked.let me not give the entire credit ot my ex, i was the one who offered the maple leaf for peace, and well we both gave it a shot, him a lil less convinced than i that this wud work but finally here we are where i am helping him wid certain relevant papers for his exam starting 12th of this mnth.i have also come close to a group of friends in class and more importantly have been able to see so much of the rest of the classmates that i am astonished that i did not see how lucky i had been to have ended up with these people.i really like my batch!managed to lay my hands upon Fossils 1 and 2. and it is great listening to their music, must thank Rick again for bringing in three new friends... AB fossils fan, Indro and Tatsat.they are kind of a chain reaction of having posted a message on the Fossils website. nice bunch of young guys, still in their graduation reminding me of all those silly things we used to do when we were there not so long ago.attempted to put things right wid Ms Sam and a complete failure... and i hate her, a bad fall out of that is Ms Kari, terrible! it is perhaps all this that nailed the final nail in the coffin of my attraction / love / need for D.
in the meantime visited bangalore for an interview met my childhood friend popla and leoraj! now i again remember hw irritating he really was! thank god i am not wid him.another reason for mental peace coming my way, atlast managed to blurt it out to friends... yes my fark secret of many years and you know what nothing bad happened, they took it so well and it was so great to be finally relived of it...
Raghu my Udiscover friend has been amazing, in tuch with him thru lettres, yes, letters written on paper with ink... have written tremendously intersting letters over the past few mnths and i am actually regretting not photocopying them.
well taking a deserved break! catch u later! with more of all that you have missed!!

Gone are the days........but not the memories

Gone are the daysWhen the school reopened in June,And we settled in our new desks and benches. Gone are the daysWhen we queued up in book depot,And got our new books and notes. Gone are the daysWhen we wanted two Sundays and no Mondays, yetManaged to line up daily for the morning prayers. Gone are the daysWhen we chased one another in the corridors in Intervals,And returned to the classrooms drenched in sweat. Gone are the daysWhen we had lunch in classrooms, corridors,Playgrounds, under the trees and even in cycle sheds. Gone are the daysWhen a single P.T. period in the week's Time Table, Was awaited moreeagerly than the monsoons. Gone are the daysOf fights but no conspiracies,Of Competitions but seldom jealousy. Gone are the daysWhen we used to watch Live Cricket telecast,In the opposite house in Intervals and Lunch breaks. Gone are the daysWhen few rushed at 5:30 to"Conquer" window seats in our School bus. Gone are the daysOf Sports Day, and the annual School Day,And the one-month long preparations for them. Gone are the daysOf the stressful Quarterly, Half Yearly and Annual Exams,And the most enjoyed holidays after them.Gone are the daysWe learnt, we enjoyed, we played, we won, we lost, We laughed, we cried,we fought, we thought.Gone are the daysWith so much fun in them, so many friends,So much experience, all this and more.Gone are the daysBut not the memories, which will beLingering in our hearts for ever and ever andEver and ever and Ever.I hope you went back to your Golden Old days..........For a while..........as I DID!!Didnt u????

A HUGE THANK YOU!

hi all,

so i am finally into a company and honestly have never been this happy abt anything as far as i cn remember. although all our placemnts are nt yet over i am keeping my fingers crossed for them and i know they will be placed very soon, so best of luck u guys.

and for all those who hve been placed till date.. congratulations to all of u (once more if i have already wished u) ! way to go guys, u r rocking!

here's hoping the entire class of 2004-06 rocks soon.

but this is a mail meant more from personal angle.

i want to thank everyone in the class for their support, warmth, words, deeds, wishes, prayers and all. i couldn't have done it without you guys!!

i want to mention some of them, irrespective of whether i mention u here or not i want u to know that ur presence has meant the world to me........

soumen -- u r the man dude! i mean i don't think any of this would be happening without u. thank u for 'thinking about it', and keeping a small personal request i made to u.the trip to bangalore deserves spcl mention u were absolutely adorable, i wud have never nown wat a wonderful human being u r had i nt gone on that trip. i love u! ;-)

subodh -- well for all of ur leg pulling i have jus one answer, u need to shift companies jus give me a buzz... seriously, i don't who else has been more concerned abt which company i sud sit for more than me, but if there was 1 person i had to pick it wud be u. thanx for standing up for me in frnt of bcb. thanks!

ipsita -- umm! wat can a i say, warm smiles and silence speaks volumes more than words... thank u for sittin beside me.... its meant the world.

paromita -- a card wud hve been more appropriate but thanx for praying for me, thanks for being the stability i sometimes lack.... best of luck dear i know u will make it! for being the presence in ur silence. i appreciate our talks!

priyasha -- ok for worrying for everyone! u did enuff of that to make up for us. jokes apart, u gave me a lot of perspective... and no i will not murder ur boyfriend.

bhaskar -- what words shud describe the incorrigable one! constantly at my ears, ur confidence in me made me walk thru those interviews with the attitude which i nw wud hve made u proud.since i have declared i will nt kill u.. so here's another confession of sorts..... thnx for expecting so much frm me.. i mean that! love u (hope priyasha's not reading too much into that!)

jayeta -- thanks for ur harry potter's darling i think they have kept me sane.and ur pep talks worked magic. sreemoyee -- for mothering me thru the bangalore trip. and ur clasps and well ur hairdo advice.

moumita -- for giving me the confidence when i saw u sitting with ur head held high and flashing ur charming smile even after rejections.. best of luck!

ishita-- well, for being my neighbour and being happy when i didnt make it to tata ryerson.

debjani -- for running around on 15th and for being part of my exclusive club ;-)

pallav -- well the train journey has been the best time of my life, and i know cudn't have been so good widout u.. .. for always smiling, thank you.

shudho -- for craking me up wid ur sense of humour! lol!

sayantan -- u r out of this world, if india team needs some1 to pep them up before a match u get the job hands down..... u know i cudn't have done it widout u.

anirban (mophead) -- for all the judgments i have passsed on u, i forgot to add that u r one hell of a interviewer, today's workout on the interview helped me immensely! thanks for making me go thru the paces.... swear it helped like hell! someones very lucky too inspite of what i said to u before abt u being a monkey!

sipu -- one word "adorable" and i absolutely love u.

shibu -- for making me a part of his family ;-) love u dear!

and a few surprise entries... or are they?

pushpal, sushanto for ur minimizations, that was fun...

ashish for being irritating! abusing u is therapeutic! accolades for u.

neelu for putting wid all the innuendo and ironies i play with...

ajay for making me smile even when pulling my leg.

shamik for ur company thru the gd's and harrowing waits for telling me to chill out and being angry for me on tata ryerson day.

himangshu for smiling always.....

jaideep for his gruff yet honest wishes.

anirban mishra for his incessant questions.

ambrish for being him.

anirban bose for asking me after each gd whenther he was good.

and all those i am forgetting right nw..... a big thank you!

honestly, couldn't have done without you all..........

my best wishes to u all and i love u all!

priyanka!

MBA(DAY) 2004-06 BATCH WILL ROCK!

newsflash!

yipee!!!!!!

I have job, after the gruelling sessions and nail bilting finishes, i finally have a job and oh! my god the feeling is incredible, i am so happy i don't have words to describe it.

i am now a proud employee of

PANTALOONS RETAIL (INDIA) LIMITED.

i want to say that i couldn't ave done it without my friends at the institute and so many others who i am not mentoning here as i try and finish this post.

i will write in more later, till then.....

three cheers!!!!

-- pranks --

does this touch you?

While life is a journey in itself with many different 'stop's that come in between (by stop i mean people we meet, our achievements and failures) before you reach the destination.... sometimes i feel that some 'stop's themselves become life!!!

this what i thought after i read this story..... while every small thing can teach everything, you can as well learn nothing from big things... what say??

won't bore u more... jus go thru the story pasted below... and does that touch you???!?!?

The Perfume...

As she stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day ofthe school, she told the children an untruth. Like most teachers shelooked at her students and said she loved them all the same. Howeverthat was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in theseat was a little boy named Teddy Stoddard.

Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that hedid not play well with the other children, that his clothes weremessy, and that he constantly needed a bath. In addition, Teddycould be unpleasant.

It got to the point where Mrs. Thompson would actually take delightin marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and thenputting a big "F" at the top of his papers. At the school where Mrs.Thompson taught, she was required to review each student past recordsand she put Teddy's off until the last. However when she reviewed hisfile, she was in for a surprise.

Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright child with aready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners. He is ajoy to be around."

His second grade teacher wrote Teddy is an excellent student, wellliked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has aterminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

His third grade teacher wrote, "Teddy's mother's death has been hardon him. He tries to do his best, but his father doesn't show muchinterest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps are nottaken."

His fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't showmuch interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and hesometimes sleeps in class."

By now Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of herself.She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas presents,wrapped beautifully in bright ribbons and paper, except for Teddy's,whose present was clumsy and wrapped in heavy brown paper, the hewould have got from a grocery bag. Mrs. Thompson took pains to openit in the middle of the other presents.

Some of the children started to laugh when she found the rhinestonebracelet with some of the stones missing and a bottle of perfume thatwas only one quarter full. But she stifled the children's laughterwhen she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, anddabbing some of the perfume on her wrist. Teddy Stoddard stayed onafter school that day just long to say, " Mrs. Thompson, today yousmelled just like my mom used to." After the children left, she criedfor at long time

On that very day, she quit teaching reading, writing, and arithmetic.Instead she began to teach children. Mrs. Thompson paid particularattention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to comealive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By theend of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children inclass. And, despite her lie that she loved all the children the same,Teddy became one of her "pets".

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, tellingher that she was still the best teacher he had ever had in his life.

Six years went by before she got another letter from Teddy. He thenwrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and shewas still the best teacher he ever had in is whole life.

Four years after that she received another note saying that whilethings had been tough at times, he still stayed in school, had stuckwith it, and would soon graduate with the highest honors. He assuredMrs. Thompson that she was still the best and most favorite teacherhe ever had in his whole life.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time heexplained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go alittle further. The letter explained that she was still the best andmost favourite teacher he ever had in his whole life. But now thename was little longer ... the letter was signed, Theodore F.Stoddard, MD.

The story does not end here. There was yet another letter thatspring. Teddy said the he met this girl who was going to marry.

He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and hewas wondering if Mrs. Thompson would agree to sit at the wedding inthe place that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom.

Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what, she wore that bracelet- the one with several rhinestones missing. Moreover, she alsoremembered to wear the perfume that Teddy's mother wore on the lastChristmas they spent together.

They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson'sear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so muchfor making me feel important and showing me that I could make adifference."

Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back, "Teddy, youhave it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make adifference. I didn't know how to teach till I met you."

You could have a Teddy standing in front of you and yet not realize it . . .

Warm someone's heart today. Just try to make a difference in someone's lifetoday, tomorrow.. Just do it. Random acts of kindness I think they call it . .

KBC 2

Hi Frnz,
6 * 100 * 10 * 20 * 20 = 240000024 lakhs in 20minutes..cue is KBC 2!Any guesses ??6(Rs/SMS) * 100(entries) * 10( cities ) * 20 (districts ) * 20(states ) =6 * 400000(people trying for the 2 lakhs cash price )Imagine what if 1000 entries try out from 100 cities ??The figure simply grows by 2 more zeores and yields a whooping 24Crores!!And it does not stops there... 1000 entries from 100 towns is a very smallnumber .. in practice it could be another multiple of 100 or worst case amultiple of 1000 on an average..In that case it is 24 * 100 crores earnings in just 20 minutes on everyepisode!And the price money :-)) mere 2 CRORE ( and from whose pocket;-) )Smart Buisness by Sidharth Basu!And the best part of this calculation is just the SMS earning!What about the Ad money ??A rough annual profit calculation goes like this..2400 * (5 * 4)(episodes/month) * 12= 576000 croresLet even 50% get dissolved in taxes and other payments, still you will beleft with ( which includes even the meagre 480 crores of pricemoney..i.e.,if every episode bags 2 crore prize!! )2,88,000 Crores profit ( only from SMS !!!! )

musing ......

"The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it."

- W.M.Lewis

got it wrong mister!

On walking into the factory, the MD noticed a young guy leaning against thewall, doing nothing.

He approached the young man and calmly said to him,How much do you earn?"
The young man was quite amazed that he was asked such a personal question,he replied, none the less, "I earn $ 2 000.00 a month, Sir. Why?"

Without answering, the MD took out his wallet and removed $ 6000.00 cashAnd gave it to the young man and said, "Around here I pay people forworking, not for standing around looking pretty! Here is 3months'salary,now GET OUT and don't come back".
Noticing a Few onlookers, the MD said in a very upset manner, "And thatapplies for everybody in this company".
He approached one of the onlookersand asked him, "Who 's the young man that I just fired ?"

To which an amazing reply came of,

"He was the pizza delivery man, Sir!"

thought again

"Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines." ~Robert Schuller

so true!

but can we always???

Essential arts

The art of navigating the road of life is not to be a victim of what happens to you; but rather to be an architect of the road and making things happen.

The art of problem-solving lies in your attitude and approach to the problem; think positively, often the problem lies in how we look at things.

The art of positive thinking is to have a positive image of yourself not by proclaiming your goodness in words but proclaim your goodness in deeds.

The art of being you-nique is not in how you appear but rather in letting what you do and how you do it be a reflection of what you are.You are the only "you" that there is; no one can think with your mind, speak with your voice and smile with your face, cry with your tears or act with your body but you. So be the best "you" that you can be.As you choose good, decent and pleasant people to associate with, make yourself deserving of those associations. (Would you befriend "you" if you were someone else?)

The art of speaking is not in the volume of words or sound but rather in the wisdom of the content. (Do not say all that you think and think carefully of what you say).

The art of criticism lies not in succeeding to find faults, but in finding a means whereby the fault is realized and corrected.

The art of disagreement is not in being hostile and adamant but in being able to disagree without being disagreeable.

The art of joyfulness is not only being happy yourself but in increasing that joy by bringing happiness to the lives of others.

The art of inspiring is to uplift others by suggestion and demonstration rather than by injunction and dictation.

The art of social living is not to appear better than others but in bringing out the best in yourself and facilitate bringing out the best of others.

The art of solitude is not only in occupying yourself when you are alone but in enjoying the company of the one you are alone with.

The art of personality is to commit yourself to being of benefit to the world and occupy yourself with so much striving to improve yourself that you have less time to criticize others.

Lovely Poem

A bell is no bell 'til you ring it,A song is no song 'til you sing it,
And love in your heartWasn't put there to stay -
Love isn't love'Til you give it away.


- Oscar Hammerstein

thought crossed my mind 1

How true

When the time comes for you to give your heart to someone make sure that u select someone who will never break your heart coz broken hearts have no spare parts.

But how can you guarantee that?

terrible news

My results are finally coming out and i have a feeling they aren't going to be that great!
it is ofcourse, better not mentioned that the results have been comng out since last monday, however, i don't know, i am again not sure, they may be out tomorrow or on monday.
worse, i am probably going to mumbai the next friday, and with bad results the scene at home will not be so great!!
here's hopng for the best!

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a thought!!

People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are.
I don't believe in circumstances.
The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them.


GEORGE BERNARD SHAW
1893

9:49 PM 9/12/05

so here i sit down to write something. what exactly i am not too sure, after all there must be something i want to write, no, actually it is not a 'must' but a 'have'. all of a sudden i feel as if i have to write something, anything. i am listening one of my favorite numbers from a bangla band FOSSILS, called Hasnuhanah. it is an amazing song, and when i had heard it the first time, which was a long time ago, i was touched by the essential truth that i found hidden in those lines. but today when i have the enitire CD and have heard all the songs i must confess i have quite a few favorites. but somehow it is strange that when i had searched for it high and low, i had failed to locate it, and now that i least expected it, here it lies in my hand.is this then destiny?ahh!sometimes i wonder, really wonder why certain things happen at specific times, are they thus destined to happen or is there something else. may be i always think too much. i am not a huge rock fan yet, i happen to meet the guy who is crazy about such music and from there came the first CD which was the band's second release, and now all of a sudden having left a mere message at the band's website, i end up meeting a fossils fan who gives me their first release. i cannot finish counting how many times i have already heard this CD ever since i lay hands upon it last fri. i simply love this stuff. it is almost addictive. after all to my own astonishment, i have been playing it every morning before leaving for my institute, and rocking away when i return. i have to consciously stop myself from turning my PC on and start palying this CD. it is such an addiction!strangely, i have their second CD yet i do not play it that often and nor did i when it was the only one i owned. but yes initially i did paly it a lot during my exam breaks and rocked on in breaks. but this is completely unprecedented, i just do not like listening to any other music at all.well that write up got a nice direction. but now i am lost again.these days i get confused, i am writing in the outlook express although this hardly a mail, when i was thinking whom to write to, i drew a blank. first i thought of D and then Rick, but i decided one wouldn't answer and was a lost case in appreciating good letters and the other, i am assuming is very busy and hence not to be disturbed.i sent three letters today.1. to sam apologizing, and asking her to let our friendship have another chance. also a birthday wish.2. to raghu, a much awaited letter, one that was supposed to be posted a week back, lazy me!3. to tanisha, after i received a fantastic surprise, two very sweet cards.
so now whom to write and what to write..a bit of lyrics...." i had so much to tell you,but now it seems everything is overand there is nothing more left to tell you."Nice!!

HELLO ALL

It has been a long time since i have writtten in, and over the last few days life has been full of turmoil, as if it isn't always!!
i watched a very nice and thought provoking movie IQBAL. and also had a back to back Harry Potter three movie marathon. it was great, more on that later...
till next time.. keep smiling!!

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY

Scientists at the Rocket launching station in Thumba, were in the habit of working for nearly 12 to 18 hours a day. There were about Seventy such scientists working on a project. All the scientists were really frustrated due to the pressure of work and the demands of their boss but everyone was loyal to him and did not think of quitting the job. One day, one scientist came to his boss and told him - Sir, I have promised to my children that I will take them to the exhibition going on in our township. So I want to leave the office at 5 30 pm. His boss replied - O K, , You are permitted to leave the office early today. The Scientist started working. He continued his work after lunch. As usual he got involved to such an extent that he looked at his watch when he felt he was close to completion.The time was 8.30 p.m Suddenly he remembered of the promise he had given to his children. He looked for his boss,,He was not there. Having told him in the morning itself, he closed everything and left for home.Deep within himself, he was feeling guilty for having disappointed his children.He reached home. Children were not there.His wife alone was sitting in the hall and reading magazines. The situation was explosive, any talk would boomerang on him. His wife asked him - Would you like to have coffee or shall I straight away serve dinner if you are hungry. The man replied - If you would like to have coffee, i too will have but what about Children???Wife replied- You don't know - Your manager came at 5 15 p.m and has taken the children to the exhibition. What had really happened was The boss who granted him permission was observing him working seriously at 5.00 p.m. He thought to himself, this person will not leave the work, but if he has promised his children they should enjoy the visit to exhibition. So he took the lead in taking them to exhibitionThe boss does not have to do it everytime. But once it is done, loyalty is established. That is why all the scientists at Thumba continued to work under their boss eventhough the stress was tremendous. By the way , can you hazard a guess as to who the boss was???????? He was A P J Abdul Kalam.