Finding NE!!

Ha ha ha!
There is no pun, no sarcasm, no illusion, no selusion in what i have names this post.
This is a blabbering of a rapidly sickening mind which seems to find no release what so ever in anything it tries to dabble in. The fucking world seems unworthy of my existence. Where is the peace that we suffer so gladly for! Hah! as if in it's entirety this world is ever going to make sense to any of us. Least of all ME!

So, where was I? Finding NE is so "interpretive" (sic) you can think of so many things all together jumbled into one...

Finding Nemo
New
Me
you no... never no more of you, actually no you at all.

Selfishness engulfs everything, all pain and all remorse. Did you know that? Selfish-ness .. even as it rolls off your tongue leaves it tasting bitter as if it is burnt with somethign hot.
Yet there is only a temporary peace, pushing people away making them pay for their insensitiveness.

Can there be any release from the horror! A vaast empty pit opening out inside you, where you cram in everything from your days work, to the latest book, or may be a F@#$k even, but still there is the emptinees taht refuses to go. Is it something desirable? something like the turning up of the AC and letting the warmth of the quilt cover you from head to toe, feeling - dreaming - fantasizing that it's his hands that move over you...

But such terrible anxieties grip your heart and tear them away from every meaningful thing that you try and grasp,as you search hard across the mirky deaths of MANGROVE...............!!!!!!!!!!

.................

F@#$% F@#$% !!!!

JUST GO TO HELL!!!

White noise and nothing else
There's no more or no less,
Pain is all that remains
After love burns in Heart's grate.

Tell me no words of sympathy
Pull down the shutters on my mind
Let me wander in a lost city
Let me not look for any more answers.



JUST GIVE ME A BREAK!!

(No a KIT KAT)


Peace has left this mind
One flounders in every step
Looking for manna and finding Poison....


WHERE IS HELL!!!

Let me DIE n REST in Heat n Suffering....

LET ME LOSE all sense of truth, fairness, worth and all

LET ME FIND hell on EARTH ....

LEAVE ME ALL YOU FILTHY THOUGHTS OF NICEITY...

ruin all

ruin one

ruin life n death ... n love

LOVE = DEATH

Both are equally distant in our mind, and the matter of fact is both are very near to us withut us realising it....

F@#$ Philosophy!!!!!

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On the ocassion of Molly's Engagement

DEAR Dhoort,

Bhoot has threatened me with dire consequences if I don't do this right away. So, Here goes...

They say God doesn't take away things from you to punish you but to empty your hands to give you some gift (precious!!) to hold.

No other could have made me feel the truth of these words other than you Molly...
sometimes I wondered why things were the way they were.. and today I know that it is because they are just meant to be that way...

Enough of philosophysing, blame it on my emotional self...I am extremely upset for having missed your(Dhoort n Bhoot) engagemnet and not having been able to seee you both.

But one thing's for sure ... I wish you from the bottm of my heart... the best wishes you can wish for yourself. May you always find love whereever you go and may there be always smiles, rainbows, love and happiness everywhere, everytime....

There is nothing in this world better than finding LOVE... and I cannot think of any two people who deserve to be more happy than you (I mean you too, Bhoot(ni)!!)

Now that you have found each other.... don't forget us... 'lil (Middle Class ;-)) people who cannot imagine a day in office without you.....(Bhootni)

May you open a great big fiirm soon (Dhoot!!! please help) where you need HR's and Marketing people....

(aside) she's making me write this!!! "With her nautanki you can always start wedding management !!"

LOVE and Best (est) of wishes for d Queen of our office ... now the queen of your heart and well for being her KING.. you deserve accolades too.... ;-)

BE HAPPY ALWAYS!!!!

GOD BLESS YOU BOTH!!!


Read Dhoort as Avinash
Raed Bhoot as Molly.

empty hands!

They say that when you least expect it Life happens to you, and in a not so subtle way. Although it does have a creepy crawly way to come up from behind us when we are not looking. There is now ay to know how it overtakes us. Sometimes, we dream and live in that world of dreams for such along time that we fail to face reality when it stares at us in our face. And then we crib how we never saw what happened all of a sudden one fine day.

It is true dear friend that when you think that is all is lost there is still a glimmering hope of something nicer. One day my friend told me, GOD does not empty your hands because he wants to punish you, but he wants to empty your hands to fill them with something better, something nicer.

Look for the silver lining in the darkest of cloud and you will find that life is not so unfair as it seems at first glance.

enough!

It is quite enough, and I have had enough of this dawdling business. If people can get so confused and ridiculously insensitive then I wash my hands of all this.

How can a person having asked a person out ... completely ignore them and keep a straight face?

It is unimaginable to me.. such lack of consideration for other people's feeling is sad and frightening.

I wish people stop being so nasty and un-emotional ... and hurtful, even thought they do not realise that their behavior is hurting others, the least they can do is to read the signs and be a lil more thoughtful.

Anyway, what's the point of wondering!!
People do not care!!!!