DREAMS UNTOLD

Wednesday, December 29, 2004
I have been dreaming so much off late. It seems like I am living in the dream world. But I am not living in it? The dreamland is so much better than the real world; I just don't want to let go of it. So, I try and remember it.
VACATIONWe are on a vacation. It is so beautiful the mountains are so peaceful. I have had so much fun with Pablo I cannot imagine that holidays could be this fun. I am planning to make this an annual affair. The log cabin was so cozy and comfortable. Both of us had fun staying up late ad chatting. While traveling by the train we got used to staying wide awake at night and talking about everything under the sun. It was one of the best journeys ever. In a few days this vacation will be over. But I don't want this to get over so soon. I met Nirmalya here that was a pleasant surprise. I must confess, there is too much of coincidence in my life. Pablo probably felt a bit jealous. I forgot to add, the other day I had good fun dancing with Nirmalya, but then only dancing is his forte. I am not too impressed with him. Pablo and me have been talking about some really important stuff. He realizes that I am his friend, and being friends is a different proposition altogether. He was so shocked when I changed into some warmer clothes in front of him. He was shocked but well as one would expect played brave. I was as usual unperturbed and unembarrassed. But I am sure he was. So we played the little game of who gets embarrassed first and now he is comfortable seeing me in whatever clothes I wear, even putting lotion before bedtime. We had a hilarious discussion as to why women take so much time to dress up? He came up with such silly thoughts I forgot all about the discussion and was busy laughing. He completely cracks me up. I don't know why he goes quite when Nirmalya is around. I have this good rapport with his parents. Uncle and I went out photographing. He was quite struck by my astute observation. When we returned we found Pablo sulking because we left him and went out. But I have been a bit cautious around his mother. She is cool but one doesn't want to rub her the wrong way. One more secret and then I will wrap up. Half the nights here Pablo snuck out to my room and we spent the night together. Not that we are physical or anything. Just that it's nice and cozy to be with him. We chat for long in whispers and then fall asleep. My cell is on a daily alarm of 4 in the morning. He leaves and sneaks into his bed. He learnt how to climb down his first floor balcony. He locks his room door from the inside, so no one can find out. Come to think of it, I guess it is the nights spent in the train that he remembers. We snuggled in one berth and whispered and giggled so we wouldn't wake anyone. It has been the best time ever in my life. I am having so much fun. I spend the entire day and night with him. He is so very comfortable with me just like I had always imagined. Sometimes I wonder whether this isn't a dream.