had to write

so librans are quite something i must say. one of a kind. and now that i have met a fellow libran i am asking him questions about libran behavior. i wonder why we behave the way we do?
it has been 5 days since monday when i received a mail from D after that i have deleted his address from my mail address books and also from the yahoo messenger. i managed to send him a blank message while attempting to delete his id from the messenger, to which i received an offline which said "hello".
well if i count saturday last then it has been 6 days since i have spoken to D. i am not uoset but sometimes these thoughts crowd my mind. like today when coming to office while in the car, i started to think of the time we met on 10th may. we ate so much that day, actually i was thinking of chocolate mousee` and then i thought of us eating at forum and all and i felt a smile lighting up my face. there was a flicker of a smile and i killed it right there. yes i conciously avoided his thought and stopped myself from smiling.
its strange we are taught to be unhappy with experience. not to smile. to forget happy thoughts. i feel so sad. with my 'happy guy' gone i don't think i will ever be happy again.
poor me!