online pondering

well i am online and bored. whats new? nothing. ok now to talk about my own foolishness. i paid 1900 rs to my mobile ph company inspite of which they have barred my incoming facility, the jerks that they are! and i feel foolsh having paid the money just yesterday. now i feel i shouldn't have paid anything and sat back. this is wholly ridiculous and how can they do this, i should have simply changed my connection to some other company. ohhhhhh it is maddening! i swear.
anyway the only bad thing in all this is i will be without a phone for a couple of days.
if the whole thing does work out great if not, well i guess i can take another connection. ridiculous! whoever said that when things go wrong they do so in every which way possible, was most certainly right.
thats enough about mobile bills.
how about something a little more near home, well my aquatica plans have gone for a toss and that is no news to me, my friends group always seems to consist of people who can never bring a plan to fulfillment.
quite exasperating!!
today Rick said that he is not rich, but i guess it's kinda true. i was about to crack a silly joke but he said something rather serious which was dampening. i was wondering we tend o draw conclusions on people's lives so easily. after all being rich and driving cars is not he only things in life is it?
i mean, me and Ish both were sighing over Rick's luck in getting to drive a car. i guess i was feeling rather J about it, after all it is one of my, well, our dreams, the way he just zipped around his car i couldn't believe it. i went back home and wrote in my diary that if i was a guy, i think i would be like Rick, as in fellow libran.
i am sure now i would make a decent driver although dad has no faith in my abilities, after all Rick talks as much as i do, but its all about confidence, is it not?
of course the way my life is progressing, i doubt whether i will drive a car let alone buy one. i can't possibly drive dad's car, he is impossibly sensitive when it comes to it,and i can't tolerate his back seat driving. it just drives me nuts!
so thats that!!
what next, umm!! well, Rick drives rather well, speed yet safe. ahh! now why don't people see the pointlessness in having a car and not driving fast. speed is the very essence, ain't it. i think the only reason i would ever drive the car is if there is no dad and mum in it, only me and the car and a cd playing at full volume, nah! just playing and me driving. where would i drive???
umm! not in my locality, lets see there is a flyover that extends on to a road that leads tot his place called rajarhat or something where the latest spurt of development is taking place. i have heard that it is kinda a long stretch of very good road and open land on both sides. i would drive there. i don't like too many cars honking their horns.
you know something i noticed, Rick doesn't use the horn too many times, actually i don't remember hearing it at all.
i wonder is it the car or is it his driving ability that made the road to my house, usually so bumpy, so smooth?? wonder!!
ok long post, end long overdue.
next post i will talk about ... umm music cd's in my car. if i owned one someday!
guess Rick's right to call me a kid, to me such things like own car, apartment and stuff have so much importance, you know the whole financially independent stuff.
well here's to dreams dreamt and wishes wished, and hoping they come true!!