10:31 AM 5/13/05

well i went out to meet my long lost lamb, he and i had fun frolicking in the beautiful green grassy meadows but then like all good things our time together came to an end. and it has been 3 days and i haven't met him or spoken to him, it is so very disgusting.
last day when i was pissed and writing the previous entry his call came through. but well today i don't know what will happen, it is such a lose i personally feel i ought to have left with my mom for a trip and not stayed back, he always promises and never delivers, forgetting all the deals he has made.
my ex-bf has lung cancer, and i read a bit about it today from the encyclopaedia and it just met me feel really sick, i cannot still belive that this is true. i am still hoping this will turn out to be one of his cruel jokes.