9:32 AM 5/14/05

the street slang of life is irony and it proves itself time and again, my ex bf came to visit me y'day and it was horrible, i guess i had been in my heart hoping that this would be a silly joke on his part but no it is not. he says the doc has given him 3 years but i read that lung cancers are detected at such a late stage that there is 50% chance that the victim survives for a year and 25% chance that they survive more than a year.

oh my god! what will i do? why? why? why?