a lot of it together

5/30/2005 2:19 PM
I had my lunch, guess I felt hungry after such a heavy discussion. I am through 4 hours of nothingness and now for 4 more and then I am free for the day. Aghhh! I cannot imagine, I do not even want to imagine what my plight will be when I actually get a job will I be only spending my time trying to look busy and serious? I have a fear lurking in my mind that I will not like working at all, which is a sad realization to have at this juncture of my life. What can I say, I am indecisive, what did you expect?

5/30/2005 3:35 PM
Just had a talk with a friend who is working on a market survey, not your usual stuff but it is more of a survey of the distribution channel that the electrical lighting company uses.
Although I am cribbing about nothing much to do, I do realize that if asked to do any of what these people are doing I would probably die in a day. Or worse in a couple of hours.
Let us hope we have some luck with in our final placement. After all now that he tells me that a pre placement offer may result in a lot of confusion. I wonder what our plight really will be?

5/30/2005 4:21 PM
So back again, managed to get on the net for a while but that was obviously not enough, I learn that all my attempts at sending the required stuff to the mail box has failed. Although I do not think any of the stuffs that I want to copy is that important. But there is that sense of disappointment, I guess by tomorrow things should be better. I hope that I can get a go ahead with the questionnaire, may be I ought to start on my own now that I have a floppy drive at my disposal. But then this stupid PC does not have WinZip, which makes it difficult to open the files required.
I was thinking of something a little personal just now, how selfish can people be? I mean I make all the effort in the world, if not actively but at least mentally to cheer someone up on his birthday but all I get in return is a message, “my birthday will be celebrated here with my family. My dad says so. I love my birthday.” I hate men. I know this comes as a sudden outburst but honestly, as much as I try and be nice to these people they always bug me.
I have met two new of the same species and hopefully not the same category. One has the amazing voice of Sachin Tendulkar, if you get the hint I make. His name is Riju, quite a kiddish name if I may say. The other is a Siddharth, which is decent but speaks too loudly and makes too much noise. I do not dislike them, they do provide quite a bit of entertainment. It is just too bad that I cannot interact with people here. I mean it is so boring, I do realize what a waste it is to say that HR is all about communicating with people, there are loads and loads of people but where is the communication? I spent the entire day in office getting bored, I wonder if I would even survive the bouts of boredom.
And so I go on writing things that have no meaning but at least my brain is still working, sometimes I wonder whether I will ever be able to work in an office with no real interaction, stimulation of the mind??
Well may be Ish is right! Who knows, may be we are forever doomed to be stuck where we are and continue living this morbidly boring life and never get out of this loop of wish and dream and then find someone else living the life you know you deserve to live. It further irks me to see that these people have the lives of our dreams through no extra effort of their own. One thinks, if there was the slightest bit of effort noticeable in their achievements then may be we could have reasoned that our lack of effort has led to the loss of the opportunity that we so covet.
Right now I am using a touch screen keyboard to write this. I feel it is a rather time consuming affair I like manual typing better.

5/30/2005 5:03 PM
Referring to Twelfth Night by Shakespeare, Vikram Seth’s character Late decides to substitute the word ‘happiness’ for the word ‘greatness’ in the speech to come up with a question.
What one could do to be born happy, to achieve happiness, or to have it thrust on one?
Quite an interesting question if I may say so myself. Something I would personally ask. After all it is my eternal quest to find happiness, and ask the question ‘why’ every time I feel that I have feel cheated by fate or destiny.