a friend lost?

I seem to make friends very easily. Sometimes I really do wonder whether I really make friends or do they just become my frieds. What I am trying to understand is where lies the credit?
But that is not the reason I am here writing a post. I had the opportunity to read my blogs yesterday and I realised how often I have opened my heart out in those blogs, some blogs where not so anonymous but this one is. Sometimes it is a shock to think that i cannot ever let the people I know read that blog, but hey! why am I even assuming that they would want to read them.
My friend Rick will soon be leaving this company, everyday over the last one week it has taken all my efforts to keep him from leaving, and now that was sure he was warming up to the idea to stay here, what I told him has resulted in a mess.
They say never evesdrop you will always hear bad things about yourself, worse when I though I was being his friend I was being his greatest foe. By revealing to him what people think and say about him I have pushed him to a dicision that tried stalling before.
And I have no one else but myself to blame. I cannot even say anything to stop him as I feel extremely guilty.
What have I done?
If I could only turn back time and change all but then again if I had the power wouldn't I change a lot many things. It is for being so greedy that we lose even what we have.
I am so sorry, yet that is what I always say and it is quite meaningless now.
I just wish he wouln't leave.................